Okay so I've completely been MIA on the blog scene, and as much as I've missed it, there's just been so much going on lately. As you'll notice in my previous post, the birth of my nephew, Zion has kept me busy hanging on his every "coo" and smile (even if it is just gas)! Besides the new addition, there's been a subtraction that's left my family greatly saddened.
On January 26th, my Gran passed away. She passed peacefully, and with her family around her, which is a blessing. I'm still reeling from how quickly it seemed to happen. I really was hoping for more time, but I'm moved to thankful tears every time I think of how I had the chance to speak with her while she lived with us. I can't contain my emotions when I think of how I finally got to express what my dreams and goals were, and have her understand my heart behind things. The first time I told Gran I wanted a career in fashion, her response was, well.. grandmotherly. She worried that the industry would be too cold, too cruel, too materialistic. In the last months of Gran's life, I was able to share with her my love of creating, my desire to make sure my business endeavors ALWAYS gave back in some way or another, and how my heart ached to be able to use any platform I was given in this life to inspire others.
Life without passion isn't life at all. Gran's passion was her family. We were so very blessed to call her ours. The example she and my Grandpa (Poppa as we call him) gave us of love and family life is apparent in their children and I'm sure will be the case for her grandchildren. Some times I break down crying, because I wanted Gran & Poppa to be there to see me make something substantial of my life. To "make it". I worried the place I'm in right now wasn't enough, that I'd wasted too much time, that I was too old to try something new. When I finally broke down in tears and told my mom how I felt, she told me that Gran had told her that she was so very proud of the steps I was taking to get to where I wanted to be. I'm so far from perfect that it's not funny, and I still have so far to go, but hearing that Gran understood that I was doing my best means the world to me.
This morning I woke up early to do yoga. I really focused on clearing my mind of all the clutter, and being thankful. During my morning routine I stepped on the scale & realized that I've lost over 70lbs! It hasn't been over night, and there's been some ups & downs (actually a lot of ups & downs) but lately I've had so much peace and focus on my goals and it finally hit me how major my accomplishment is. That's when the tears happened. I thought back to two and a half years ago. I'd just had to attend the second funeral in a year for another close friend of mine. I was a huge, unhappy mess of a girl who really struggled to make it through the day, let alone plan for a future. It was a ridiculously dark place in my life. I remember days where I'd fall asleep at my desk, and I was ALWAYS late for work. I would cry at the drop of a hat.. and all that came flooding back, and the way my late friend, Jakub, would always tell me how I was a total fox & to not let anyone tell me different. I didn't know how he could say something like that to someone like me.. I was huge, and I felt horrible. This morning, I finally understood. What I'm becoming is from the inside out.
The changes that I've made are spiritual, emotional, and now they're bleeding into the physical. I feel that every day I'm growing stronger and learning more about myself, and what I'm capable of. I'm about to sell my car, pay off my debt, and travel this summer. I've been offered a trip to Cancun, which I cannot turn down, I'm excited for Vegas with my girlfriends, and hopefully California come fall. I have a huge care package on its way from a well known design school in San Diego, and I've been speaking with the Admins about finishing my Bachelors in Design..
So... this! All of this! This is what I've been keeping in my heart, and the dedication to getting into shape mentally, physically, and emotionally, has left me a little behind on the blogging. I'm somewhat elusive when it comes to keeping up with the posting, BUT I do promise to update on all the exciting things that are happening at some point or another, because I need to remember exactly how I feel in these moments.
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& the winner for biggest distraction goes to..
Okay - it's been over a week and I said I would keep things updated, however, between work, my workouts, and this little bundle I've been MIA. Can you blame me?
My sister and I have been spending time together {mainly because I can't take my eyes or my hands off this little guy} and I must admit, faced with the choice of being behind a laptop or glued to a computer or watching him make noise in his sleep, baby Zion will ALWAYS win. That said, I'm currently catching up Fashion Week shows {London & New York -- yes, I'm that behind right now.. shameful!} & will post my favorite looks & my most sought after items shortly!
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Sorry for the mini hiatus..
Okay, so I honestly meant to keep updated with my anticipated shows & what I loved from last year & hoped to see this season... however, this weekend was full with two birthday parties {one taking me out of town for a 24hr vacation} and then Family day yesterday.. that said, I'm thinking of doing one large post now as it doesn't make much sense to follow the "Tomorrow's most anticipated" approach, in hindsight. Stay tuned!
NYFW: February 8th, 2013
I have to say spending this morning with a hot cup of tea, streaming NYFW's live coverage of shows was enough to make me happy I rolled out of bed & came to work.
With today's shows beginning to wind down, I'm starting to get excited about tomorrow... As for a few shows I've missed, I'll be glued to my laptop the moment I get home tonight to catch up!
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| Classy classy classy! Old elegance & a neutral pallet were so chic! The fur coat on the left had me dying! |
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| Gold hardware, mixed media (if you will) with sparkles, velvet, silky finishes, and fur! Totally diva worthy & the jewel tones thrown in for good measure had me giving this collection a round of applause! |
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| Lace & Silk, Fur & Velvet, Sheer blouses & accents.. The clothes really speak for themselves on this one - looks like Rebecca Minkoff & Nicole Miller were thinking the same pallets with a slightly different take. Overall, I loved it! |
I can't wait to see the evening portion for tonight & make a mental list of what I would buy if I could buy! There was a particular grey knit sweater with a button up back at Nicholas K that I couldn't take my eyes off of, and Richard Chai Love had me thinking I'd be set if I was ever half of one of those couples that liked to compliment each others' outfits {will I ever be that in love with anything but Fashion? I doubt it.. but it was a funny thought}. Timo Weiland's collection looked beautiful from what I could see on Twitter & Instagram..
Whose collections are you most excited to see tomorrow?
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NYFW: February 7th, 2013.
By now fashions' elite are, no doubt, beginning to arrive at the opening night AMFAR New York Gala.. For the sake of feeling better about myself, I've decided to pretend that my invitation was lost in the mail. Way to go Canada Post! Of course I had an outfit picked out; I was ready to hop the next flight to the East Coast, but I just couldn't leave the office. I'm up to my eye balls in solving the worlds problems.
In all seriousness, though, as I mentioned in my last post: I'm more than a little excited to see what certain designers {whose collections tugged at my heart strings & inspired me last year} will put down the run way tomorrow...
Catching my eye immediately are Nicholas K, Richard Chai Love, and Edun. These designers captured my admiration last year & had me lusting for a bigger paycheck {and more closet space} with which I could collect piece after piece!
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| Nicholas K design team Nicholas & Christopher Kunz draped fabric beautifully in what I'd call cowgirl meets grunge. The earthy & semi-sheer pieces as well as the leather accents inspired so much lust in me! |
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| Richard Chai had me in love with the idea of floral-esque coats & blazers, as well as mixing patterns. I only hope to one day master mixing patterns as it makes my heart go pitter patter! |
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| What can I say about Sharon Wauchob? I love her design, and for Edun this is ever so true! Splashes of bold color, animal prints, gorgeous draping & fit paired with knits & chunky coats.. honestly what more could I ask for? The woman had me drooling! |
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- Anxious Fashion Addict.